I did it. Knew I would. and yes, i bite-sized punked out and beat around the bush a bit, and it turned out really cheesy, but it's over. And for the first time, I don't know how I feel about something. If I'm mad, sad, or happy, I know how to deal with that, but this indifference, this is something new. I even know why I don't feel anything...he didn't give me anything to go off of...no acceptance, no rejection, no nothing. And it doesn't seem like it'll be weird, so I hope it won't. Which is something, because I really just stuck it out there...ha! (it really is kind of funny now) He could tell anybody, he could treat me differently, but i dunno...
I really feel weirder than ever now because I don't feel anything. I tried to smile, but it didn't work, I tried to cry, but it didn't feel right. I even tried to doubt whether I should've done it, and for a moment, that felt right, but then nothing.
So it's done. and done.
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Hmm. Honestly, I'm there with you. I was there back in fall. After you get shut down so many times, you kind of become numb. Especially when the other person doesn't give you any type of reaction or indication.
Don't try to squeeze any 'additional' feeling out of it. Because honestly, if he didn't respond to you with even a simple no or yes, he isn't worth you wasting emotion over.
I'm proud of you, though, for not punking out entirely and at least letting him know how you feel. I, on the other hand, am putting my own feelings in a letter, Mic Little style lol...
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