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Grocery Trip!

I'm hot. I just did a pre-yoga workout, and because I'm excited about blogging, I'll go ahead and post what Neyla and I bought for groceries today. And here are some pictures, because we're cheesy enough to take pictures at H-E-B, lmao.

 

Neyla also has this uncanny ability to look amazing even for a trip to the grocery store, so shoutout to her for that lol! The plan for this week is:

Breakfast: Oatmeal with blueberries (and she made me get the real oatmeal, not the instant kind, bleh)
Eggs and sausage
Cinnamon Raisin Toast with almond butter
Orange Juice

Lunch: Chicken Tacos

Dinner: Pasta with veggies

Snacks: Yogurt, baby cucumbers, sweet potatoes, bananas, oranges (I wanted cuties but they didn't have them.)

The complete shopping list:
Oatmeal
blueberries
sausage
eggs
cinnamon raisin toast
almond butter
orange juice
chicken breast
tortillas
cheese
guacamole
green and red bell peppers
whole wheat penne pasta
ground beef
tomato sauce
yogurt
baby cucumbers
sweet potatoes
oranges
apple cider vinegar
pickles
bananas

I spent $96.41, and threw in a few extra items for my entertainment. We'll see how this goes, the plan is to not be lazy and actually cook and fix these items, and to also see how far this stretches. In a regular workweek, I would easily spend: $5 breakfast, $10 lunch, $10 dinner. That's $25 day, which is $125 a week. So I'm interested to see how the above shakes out. Also keep in mind I'm not totally being healthy yet, right now the goal is to gain weight and eat more, so don't judge too hard. I still grabbed a bag of ruffles & a Dr. Pepper on the way out of the store (not pictured). Now off to yoga class!

Delicious Diet

Diet is not just about losing weight. It's about what you eat (and how you live). The thing is, when I step on the scale, I'm hoping I weigh MORE. So this will be a part of the blog #deliciousdiet, where I include meals, workouts and more. I'm not trying to make money or anything off of it, honestly I'm trying to make it to 100lb. Currently I'm 5'5 and weigh 84b. (I know, I know.) I also have Crohn's Disease and Ulcerative Colitis, so it's hard for me to gain weight and my diet is very important, but I don't always treat it as such.

Currently, like as of today, I have been eating 2 times a day. Pitiful and shameful, I know. But when I was going to a 9 to 5, I ate lunch on the regular and my body even got used to breakfast, and I used to hate breakfast! I couldn't tolerate it, if I ate before 11am I would literally vomit. So now with my very poor eating habits, I have to train my body to accept food again. This begins today.

I went to yoga class on Monday, and I did well. It was tough, because I am so out of shape. Like, I was dancing in the club and got tired out of shape, and that's never happened to me before, but it was a great wake up call to do better by my body. You only get one. And as much as me and mine have been through, I should really know better. Right when we got to the core exercises at the end of yoga, I wasn't even going to attempt them, but my body starting moving and I did all of those reps, okay?! I was so proud! And tired, haha. Tuesday I didn't work out at all, and I wanted to beat myself up about it, but this is a marathon, not a sprint. The point is to develop good habits, and that's going to take some adjustments. I'm going to yoga again tonight, and I'm sure I'll report my results.

Today I went grocery shopping with my friend Neyla who is amazing at eating healthy. Let me tell you what shocked me. When they say read the ingredients and if you can't pronounce it, don't eat it, that's true! We picked up things with ingredients that I had no problem reading. I spent roughly $100 and we'll see how long these groceries last me. I'll post what we bought soon, and let you guys know how it's going. I try not to make posts too long, just had to establish some background, so I'll stop here, and be sure to check #deliciousdiet for all things health related!

Keep your expectations low...

Okay so here's the thing. I want to start a blog. But not one that's super popular because I don't know how dedicated I'll be to the blog. But I have a lot of stuff to say. Things millennials go through. Things that could be shared to help someone else. Things that could be shared to help my mental health. Things that could be shared period lol. So we're going to start today. I thought of starting a new blog, but I have sentimental ties to this one, so we'll just start here and see how this goes. And if I happen to help you, please let me know. It will encourage me to write more.

Relax.

The good news is, the guy I wrote about in my last post, I'm no longer seeing. We'll call this guy Ray for the future purposes of this blog. I'm proud of myself for that. I thought to come here because of the haiku project I did in 2009, I revisited it since it is officially Valentine's Day where I am. I've come a long way and I'm still pretty intense, but I've learned to relax some. I haven't written since 2014, so I feel like there's so much I want to say, but we'll just move forward from here. This blog was originally a secret, but I kept telling people about it lmao, so let's just be candid.

Today I feel full of love. I just went to a wedding & I felt a little off beat being there alone, but something about it being Valentine's Day is lifting my spirits. It could also be that I've only slept one hour in the past 25 hours. We'll see for sure when the sun rises. Love has still been a bit of a bumpy ride for me, but my self awareness has helped me realize my part in my unhappiness and what I need to change. I cut ties with Ray, I think we're borderline friends now. That was October 2014, and shortly after I met a guy we'll call D. To make a long story short, D was an upgrade in a lot of ways, I really liked him. But in a lot of ways he was also just like Ray. I saw the huge red flags & chose to ignore them and you can guess how that turned out. I'm not as distraught though, I'm strangely hopeful. If each guy gets better, then eventually I'll get to the right guy. Right now I'm just happy that this greeting card holiday isn't causing me any undue strife. I video blogged yesterday and I think I will enjoy this much more, so we'll talk again sooner than later, lovers. Be kind to yourself today.