I quit.

I'm just tired. I'm not afraid of the dark, but to borrow a line from Beyonce, I'm scared of lonely. But that's all I ever seem to be. Since I wrote my last post, I have had 2 more sordid tales of possible interests, but nothing to show for it. Back and forth, and back and forth, I'm getting dizzy. Must be, because I can't think straight long enough to decide whether I am content being single, I want to play the game, or I want to be as my sister called it, a permanent bachelorette. That might be kind of cool tho, I could have bachelorette parties all the time! No, but seriously, I'm leaning towards giving up. And I don't even want a super serious relationship, I haven't had enough practice for that. Can I get a practice game? A learning tool? But one I like? Someone who likes me? Damn! I try my best not to be, but I'm frustrated. Again. This is stupid. And I realy don't like being all emo, but right now I can't help it. I feel like I'm going to be single forever, and I don't want to. These failed attempts may even be worse than the isolation. I don't know what I feel right now, but at least I'm not too dizzy to write. It bugs me when the thoughts are so jumbled I can' even get them out. And I'm actually kind of sad about this last one. He had it all at first glance, seemed like it could've been something. But alas, he was another war wound. One that hopefully heals instead of festers, but I have a feeling this isn't the end. I have a feeling all this is going to hurt even more, and quite soon.